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one last thing
Jul. 4th, 2003 02:10 amthis will be the last thing said publicly
at least as far as things are now.
( edit 4-jul-03 5:12pm> wow i'm glad i put an )
at least as far as things are now.
( edit 4-jul-03 5:12pm> wow i'm glad i put an )
Jul. 4th, 2003
amused
from a larger post with a bunch of quotes but this jumped out at me
If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.
i was trying to say that to pink on the phone yesterday
that maybe it's not such a great character trait that i don't lie to friends and people i care about
maybe it's just that whole absentminded thing i do, that it's just easier not to lie cause then i don't have to remember what i said, HAH
from a larger post with a bunch of quotes but this jumped out at me
If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.
i was trying to say that to pink on the phone yesterday
that maybe it's not such a great character trait that i don't lie to friends and people i care about
maybe it's just that whole absentminded thing i do, that it's just easier not to lie cause then i don't have to remember what i said, HAH
still big suck
Jul. 4th, 2003 04:44 pmi'm seriously thinking about going over to the ER
i got out my directory of providers thinking maybe i have enough warning to find something other than ER
then i realized what day it is.
i should go over, get a prescription for vicodin or something, get poked, get a doctors note
and then on Monday i should call around and make an actual appt with a girly stuff doctor
even if i can't afford any tests they want to do at least i can get things looked at, make sure nothing really bad is going on in there.
i just hate doctors, especially in this category, i've only gone without someone once and that was in the middle of the big sick and kal was being often absent.
i have a lot of past baggage with girl stuff, it's very traumatizing for me to just go to a doctor about anything in that category
i suck.
i got out my directory of providers thinking maybe i have enough warning to find something other than ER
then i realized what day it is.
i should go over, get a prescription for vicodin or something, get poked, get a doctors note
and then on Monday i should call around and make an actual appt with a girly stuff doctor
even if i can't afford any tests they want to do at least i can get things looked at, make sure nothing really bad is going on in there.
i just hate doctors, especially in this category, i've only gone without someone once and that was in the middle of the big sick and kal was being often absent.
i have a lot of past baggage with girl stuff, it's very traumatizing for me to just go to a doctor about anything in that category
i suck.
in lighter news
Jul. 4th, 2003 04:56 pmi'm having a very silly conversation with pinky's mexican via text message/email
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 3:33 PM
Subject: christian needs ya 2
Look up the ingredients 4 baybreeze
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 3:58 PM
Subject: Re: christian needs ya 2
can i reply to this? 1/2 oz Malibu Rum 1/4 oz Pineapple Juice 1/4 oz Cranberry Juice
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:01 PM
Subject: RE:Re: christian nee
Please look it up, baybreeze is vod 4 1 thanx, i appreciate
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:07 PM
Subject: Re: RE:Re: christian nee
i googled "ingredients baybreeze" and that's what i last sent if replying to this works, i have no idea what "vod 4 1" means
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:16 PM
Subject: hmm?
who am i talking to anyway, kel?
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:19 PM
Subject: RE:hmm?
No but i luv u just the same muah, christ ps get naked
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:28 PM
Subject: hey baby
look here's mah boobies ( * )v( * )
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:35 PM
Subject: RE:hmm?
Thanx eris this is kel's mexican
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:39 PM
Subject: Re: RE:hmm?
yes i understood that, i don't do a good text cooch so you only get tha boobies
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:43 PM
Subject: RE:Re: RE:hmm?
Awe u so sweet even gave me a stiffy :)
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 3:33 PM
Subject: christian needs ya 2
Look up the ingredients 4 baybreeze
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 3:58 PM
Subject: Re: christian needs ya 2
can i reply to this? 1/2 oz Malibu Rum 1/4 oz Pineapple Juice 1/4 oz Cranberry Juice
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:01 PM
Subject: RE:Re: christian nee
Please look it up, baybreeze is vod 4 1 thanx, i appreciate
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:07 PM
Subject: Re: RE:Re: christian nee
i googled "ingredients baybreeze" and that's what i last sent if replying to this works, i have no idea what "vod 4 1" means
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:16 PM
Subject: hmm?
who am i talking to anyway, kel?
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:19 PM
Subject: RE:hmm?
No but i luv u just the same muah, christ ps get naked
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:28 PM
Subject: hey baby
look here's mah boobies ( * )v( * )
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:35 PM
Subject: RE:hmm?
Thanx eris this is kel's mexican
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:39 PM
Subject: Re: RE:hmm?
yes i understood that, i don't do a good text cooch so you only get tha boobies
Sent: Friday, July 04, 2003 4:43 PM
Subject: RE:Re: RE:hmm?
Awe u so sweet even gave me a stiffy :)
hi, a public post
Jul. 4th, 2003 09:04 pmhappy fucking fourth of July
hoo-hah!
it was the best of times it was the worst of times
sometime later tonight i will go to the dreaded ER, get some drugs and get a doctor's note.
i'm almost glad i'm having serious girl problems right now, even if they may have been worsened by stress. gives me a valid reason to be feeling ick and gives me something tangible to get a doctors note for so i'll only get the one occurrence, hopefully i have enough PPT time so i won't lose any pay either.
i also haven't eaten today or yesterday
my lips are chapped i think my stomach has shrunk to nothing, i know i was drinking water yesterday not sure if i have today. i should at least drink water
maybe i should down some of that vitiman crap curtis gave me.
even if i'm still friending and filtering, it feels good not to be hiding.
what i hid mostly is how much everything since January has hurt me,
still hurts me i'm not over it, but i am moving on.
you know, eris of steel and all that, heartless bitch nothing touches me.
blah, i wish.
hoo-hah!
it was the best of times it was the worst of times
sometime later tonight i will go to the dreaded ER, get some drugs and get a doctor's note.
i'm almost glad i'm having serious girl problems right now, even if they may have been worsened by stress. gives me a valid reason to be feeling ick and gives me something tangible to get a doctors note for so i'll only get the one occurrence, hopefully i have enough PPT time so i won't lose any pay either.
i also haven't eaten today or yesterday
my lips are chapped i think my stomach has shrunk to nothing, i know i was drinking water yesterday not sure if i have today. i should at least drink water
maybe i should down some of that vitiman crap curtis gave me.
even if i'm still friending and filtering, it feels good not to be hiding.
what i hid mostly is how much everything since January has hurt me,
still hurts me i'm not over it, but i am moving on.
you know, eris of steel and all that, heartless bitch nothing touches me.
blah, i wish.
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Jul. 4th, 2003 10:42 pmIt's around 10:40ish i'm sitting in the waiting room, been thru triage, got checked in got bracelet on wrist. My car is making strange noises and i almost instinctivly called a certain person to ask him what to do. Ugh. I'm horribly dizzy, i want this to be over and go back home.