yeahbob

so my brother isn't visiting THIS weekend but the one after this coming weekend

my mother called, and she handed the phone to my visiting grandmother and grandfather
it was awkward, i can't relate to them, they can't relate to me
i guess i take comfort in knowing they're also off put by this

i have a cousin that lives up here in fulsom (just moved here).
he and his wife are born and raised SDA, he works for a company owned by the church
my family wants me to get in contact with him.

what the hell do he and i have in common anymore. i may be eventually learning to be some sort of grown up, but normal world grown up and grown up to my family are two different things.
as long as i do things that embarrass them (hey mom, guess what i did yesterday, i printed out naked people and taped them to my walls)
and am not properly attached to the right kind of man
and am not 'in the church'
i will forever be an immature child to them

for a moment i think it bothers me
then i realize that there are a few people that are not my family that it's much more important to me that they are proud of me

but part of my brain still clings to the notion that a mother is suppose to be proud of you as long as you're happy.

at least my father likes and approves of me.

i'm going to sleep now.

so then

i'm not asleep quite yet
i found a working version of chillcam and now i'm attempting to set up some lights i got so they'll be enough light for the cam
i put up the purple dangly lights but i can't make them stop being twinkly, no control (suppose that's why they were three bucks)

so i'm going to attempt to put up the larger 'black light' bulb string

ugh!

i think i give up
i can't seem to arrange the big bulbs in a way that their not either touching their cords or touching each other,
and i know from when i plugged them in for a few seconds when i took them out of their box that they get rather hot

can we say fire hazard?

i suppose i'll have to wait until i have time to string them more properly somehow, they've each got little clippies on them so that bears investigating as to what they'll clippie onto

i'm going to try one more thing with the string of purple, it's got no switch but it's got these little 'control bulbs' and removing them stopped the twinkle, however it also turned off half of the lights. so perhaps if i replace the twinkle bulbs with the normal replacement bulbs.. hmmm

well ok

cam's on
they picture will probably disappear into blinding white by the time anyone's awake to see it, but oh well

?

what's this?
it looks like i can make it so a different lighting and color profile will take effect at a certain time
hmmm

nightnight

ok nifty
sleep now.

zzzzz

going to sleep a bit more
adjusted the cam so it's not blinding white
i need a nifty thing that makes entries at certain intervals automatically

hiya

so i didn't quite get back to sleep
i finished a book i was reading and i'm entertaining thoughts of soup and fucking with joey (dj test server)
so i'll turn the cam towards my desk up here and leave it on as cam2
and i shall attempt to dig up one of my other cams and put it on the computer downstairs
i'm hoping the USB quickcam will work, last time i tried to use it at dom's house it refused to focus

downstairs

looks like the usb quickcam still refuses to focus
i wonder where the parallel one is
or my other little piece of crap nameless usb cam

i'm gonna feed the beastie
check the mail & get me some soda (if i can find change)
make some soooop

my coke tastes grapey

out of dr pepper still
i had to fight with the machine cause i couldn't find any change and i had ratty dollars
soooop is on the stove

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=o
hot sooop

FAGS!

* BleuLlama is nonplussed by Dan's efforts to scare him
Dan> :)
* Dan takes his pants down and runs towards BleuLlama, tell me that now big boy
* Dan turns around and runs away scared
BleuLlama> meh. you're no fun anymore.

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somebody is purring in my ear!
it tickles!

money for nothin, chicks for free

i went and took a stamp to qt then ended up sitting there and just hanging out
randomness

i expected that roommate guy to be awake by the time i came back but it sounds like he's getting up now

everything is frustrating me so i'm not going to make a list
that'll just bug me more
ugh

ja

plausible deniability

who would you believe, me or a turnip?

oi?

somebody come take me out for sushi
right now.

* eris waits

uhoh

i'm playing in the habbo hotel
my username is eriss

damnit

i changed my mind now i want burger king
bah

someone come play with me in http://www.habbohotel.com/

=D

eris food:

chip sammach supreme

bread
mustard
pickles
some sort of dorrito or dorrito clone

yum

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GO! vote for imjstagrrl, damnit!

I. R. Fagnstuff

on cam upstairs

eris> i am headless!
SCSi> you need some head!