OH LOOK!!!

a new POTM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



!!!!!!

BE EXCITED!

or something

ohyeah, and that friend's only post down there will go into the potm archive later as well, even tho they're mostly recycled pictures they're cropped and resized and nifty together

my eye twitches, i must have angered it

oh horrible obsessed eris
been working for hours on the potm archive
i've been moving backwards from march collecting livejournal posts with pictures
and i still don't have April and the beginning of may done
and then i've got to see if there's things to fix in the galleries, cause giggle mentioned some broken links
then put up the guest galleries
then then then
more stuff
i'm walking away from the computers in a bit i think
mebbie some eatfood

cam on

time for sleep, my ears are ringing horribly and i'm tired and disgruntled
i'm hearing what sounds like a doorbell being rung over and over, but i know it's not here because the doorbell has a weird distinctive sound when it does decide to work
sleep

CLICK IT BITCH

hola

well as i was expecting my ragdolly stuff came today YAY!

i was sitting in the bedcave, half awake listening to kal and spanky, and the doorbell rang
kal went and answered it and came back in the room and said "well her ragdolly stuff came ..... sorta"
i said "what do you mean sorta?" he said "well they crushed the fuck out of the box"



but all the stuff inside is ok, and they got the burgundy in after all
i don't know if kal has the money to get me a haircut, i'm having second thoughts, because cutting off that much hair is traumatic and i know i'll cry after i get home.. i don't know what to do
see, it'll be easier to put in the silky dreads if it's short, and if i absolutely hate my hair short then i can just keep hiding it with extensions and stuff when i got places

i dunno, well if it doesn't happen while we're out then later tonight i'll put up a poll to see what you guys think

picture of all the ragdolly hair, no fun gift bag this time :(

anyhow

sounds like we're going to take the digital camera off of layaway because we're slightly out of money :/ but that means i'll have money to cut my hair, i guess i'm going to do it
here's an idea of what i'm thinking of, the spiffy site i did this at was found for me by jennylee, it's supposed to be black because the black hair had more styles but it looks blue to me, ignore the colour however
and i don't think quite that short, maybe

we have no bananas

well digital camera was taken off of layaway and we got our money back
:(
oh well, i'll get one someday, and maybe kal will get my video capture thingy working this weekend so i can content myself with still pictures from the video camera
OOH!, and we had SUSHI again! and i had my video camera with me so i finally got pictures of the boats floating around the bar, YAY

still long hair, i was hoping to chop it today before i lost my nerve, but kal doesn't want to go with me to do it
he'll give me the money
but won't go with me...
don't ask me ask him
yes i know that picture below is really crappy, it's not going to look like that, in the front where the purple streaks were (example) will be straight, meaning not layered and about chin length, the rest will be probably 4 or 5 inches long all over, that is to say; layered
and i'm going to see if i can keep my hair after they cut it and i'm going to attempt to video tape it too, heh
"The unexamined life isn't ___________" ?

and i've decided i think (i'll know for sure after it's cut) that i'm going to wait on dreds or braids right now because the main reason for getting it cut is that it's hot and it drives me crazy long
and after getting the hair it's such nice quality (and i spent $50 on it) that i feel bad using it for dreads, or using it for braids that i'm going to take out fairly quickly

i'm probably going to use a little bit of it to put streaks and a bit more body into my hair after it's cut

so tomorrow then, spanky will go with me, i think he's going to get some more manic panic, and hopefully kal will give me enough $$ so that i can get some bleach too, OH i'm really looking forward to not needing to use 2+ pots of manic panic to cover my hair

i just am feeling that cutting my hair short is something i need to do, this is hard to explain, i feel that i define myself/who i am, too much on things like my hair. like if my hair isn't long then i'll be hideously ugly
just things i need to let go of, i need to define myself, to myself, by what's IN my head, not what's ON my head
i do what i want to do not what i'm supposed to do, but over the last few years i've discovered that some of the "supposed to do" was self-enforced as in 'eris is supposed to have long hair because that's who eris is, a person with long hair'
unhealthy thoughts

heh look i turned something as simple as a hairstyle change into a life decision
should be simple
part of my point
non-point
i make things too complicated

HAIR CHOP! just do it, don't worry about it.