wow i'm cold

i always do this, after sleeping far too little, i sleep far too long
after voyager i went into dom's room (the coolest room) and read the rest of my book then i thought "i'll just take a small nap"
well i just now woke up
i had strange dreams with lots of people i know, i guess mostly the people i went to school with, nadin was there and she got overjoyed when i held her baby without freaking out (i hate babies!) but bobcat was like an infant still but he talked, so i had some really cool conversation with him about the nature of the universe (odd)
then at some point my exbf from second year of college was there and he kept crying and following me around and i couldn't figure out what was wrong, kal was getting annoyed
it was vivid and surreal at the same time

ooo jerronimo (bleullama) is trying to do something really nifty i hope it works

eating and trying to unmuddle my brain now

Mao Tsetung

In order to build a great socialist society, it is of the utmost importance to arouse the broad masses of women to join in productive activity. Men and women must receive equal pay for equal work in production. Genuine equality between the sexes can only be realized in the process of the socialist transformation of society as a whole.

Introductory note to "Women
Have Gone to the Labor Front"
(1995), The Socialist Upsurge in
China's Countryside, Chinese ed.,
Vol. I.

COMMIE MUTANT SPY!!

Liberalism manifests itself in various ways.
To let things slide for the sake of peace and friendship when a person has clearly gone wrong, and refrain from principled argument because he is an old acquaintance, a fellow townsman, a schoolmate, a close friend, a loved one, an old colleague or old subordinate. Or to touch on the matter lightly instead of going into it thoroughly, so as to keep on good terms. The result is that both the organization and the individual are harmed. This is one type of liberalism.

To indulge in irresponsible criticism in private instead of actively putting forward one's suggestions to the organization. To say nothing to people to their faces but to gossip behind their backs, or to say nothing at a meeting but to gossip afterwards. To show no regard at all for the principles of collective life but to follow one's own inclination. This is a second type.

To let things drift if they do not affect one personally; to say as little as possible while knowing perfectly well what is wrong, to be worldly wise and play safe and seek only to avoid blame. This is a third type.

Not to obey orders but to give pride of place to one's own opinions. To demand special consideration from the organization but to reject it's discipline. This is a fourth type.

To indulge in personal attacks, pick quarrels, vent personal spite or seek revenge instead of entering into an argument and struggling against the incorrect views for the sake of unity or progress or getting the work done properly. This is a fifth type.

To hear incorrect views without rebutting them and even to hear counter-revolutionary remakes without reporting them, but instead to take them calmly as if nothing had happened. This is a sixth type.

To be among the masses and fail to conduct propaganda and agitation or speak at meetings or conduct investigations and inquiries among them, and instead to be indifferent to them and show no concern for their well-being, forgetting that one is a Communist and behaving as if one were an ordinary non-Communist. This is a seventh type.

To see someone harming the interests of the masses and yet not feel indignant, or dissuade or stop him or reason with him, but to allow him to continue. This is an eighth type.

To work half-heartedly without a definite plan or direction; to work perfunctorily and muddle along -- "So long as one remains a monk, one goes on tolling the bell." This is a ninth type.

To regard oneself as having rendered great service to the revolution, to pride oneself on being a veteran, to disdain minor assignments while being quite unequal to major tasks, to be slipshod in work and slack in study. This is a tenth type.

To be aware of one's own mistakes and yet make no attempt to correct them, taking a liberal attitude towards oneself. This is a eleventh type.


"Combat Liberalism" (September
7, 1937), Selected Works Vol. II,
pp. 31-32.

hmm

anyone but me think kal is really bored?

KAL: take DURGS!!!
DRUZGS ARE YOUR FRIENDS!!!
ME: you're really bored aren't you?
KAL: UHM USE A Q_TIP AND STICK IT UP YOUR NOSE AND PULL IT OUT YOUR MOUTH
KAL: yes
KAL: my boss jsut told me i m to think of him having his pager stapled to his dick
so im wondering is it on vibrate and am i supposed to clal him alot?
*stares confused*

plus-size model?

i heard about this from a friend's only entry in someone else's journal so even though this is also friend's only i do not know if she would be upset if i said who she is, so i guess if she reads this she can respond if she wants credit :D

anyhow, this is confusing my brain a bit because in order to do this i had to admit to myself that i'm plus-sized, i tend to like to pretend that i'm acutally skinny but just have bad self image. heh
anyhow there's a site with really spiffy plus-sized clothing that is accepting model applications, they're based in L.A. and i'm not a very long flight from there and i should be moving there soon anyway, and it's not like a normal model thing were they can reject me because i'm not skinny enough (they'll just reject me if i'm not pretty enough, heh *twitch*) i tried to send as few pictures as possible, but i'm still vain and it was hard to pick just a couple that i think accuratly portrary me,
reasons i chose them:
the first two for pretty obvious reasons, they're good pictures, then a close up of my face, and a close up profile of my face, then a full body sitting on the ground kinda profile that spanky took while we were in vegas,
then the next 5 are older not so good quality ones, but they show a good portion of my body standing so as to give an idea of my body type (black is slimmming!)
and then the last 5 are from the ones giggle saved the other night and i included them because they show my current hair and me being pretty relaxed, i tried to leave out the sily kiss face one but i liked it too much and i thought it showed the bone structure of my face too.

and i said in the letter that i'm willing to do anything to my hair and cover my tattoos

so ... we'll see what happens, don't suggest any other pictures because i already sent the letter and if you've got better pictures of me then i'll just kick myself for not sending the better ones.
maybe the girl that i got the idea from and i will both get hired for the same shoot, hehe that might be fun
anyhow i'm expecting rejection as usual, but i figured it was worth a try
pictures:




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HEY YOU!!

YEAH YOU THERE READING THIS
if one of you are reading this then there is a HORRIBLY EXCITING FRIENDS ONLY POST RIGHT BEFORE THIS ONE

ok so maybe it's only slightly exciting, but there are lots of pictures
;)

boo!

out
or away

for a bit

it's a cruel, cruel summer

scsi came by and he and spanky and i went to denny's
i drank WAY too much sprite and my tummy hurts
scsi is going to put up a real bbs (telnet in tho) and he and i attempted to explain to spanky what exactly it was, and why it was cool
spanky was unimpressed, but amused at us reminiscing

n00dleboy has gone to work, i didn't have to give up half of my computerness to spanky so i'm going to try to get more stuff done