hoveringsombrero | (no subject)

very odd feelings here, not believeing this is actually my life, this place feels more like home than anything has in years but, i still feel like that maybe it's some giant hotel suite and i'm going to have to go home eventually

eris, this is your home, i keep having to remind myself, oftentimes outloud, this is my laundry room, that's my kitchen, i have stairs, i sat on the stairs and stared into the living room to see if the world looked different from there

leave it to me to bitch when things are good, hehe

i think i'd kinda like to make a bit of appy polly logies here, even tho most of you may not have noticed, when i get really stressed out and/or upset i just clam up on the site, offically, a few friends on irc get to hear it .. the thing is the reason i want to post it is not the reason it would be taken as, when i need to talk and need to vent i don't need/want your Sympathy or Charity, i just want to vent and in this little cam world i don't feel that that is always possible, so i deal silently, or not so silently but not in public then return to tell the tale

i'm me today and i like myself, how are you?