oh ouch

[hoveringsombrero]

sitting here trying to think of the least self pitying way to write this, don't know if i'll succeed so at least i'll disable responses

one of the two or three people online that could actually hurt me with their words, did so, and i'm in no position to argue, and yet another in the endless string of eris apology emails goes out

so here's my turn, you all win, i tried to partially hide because seems when i try to help i only make it worse, and then that made it worse. irony

as much as i love all of you who have been my friends, i can't fight to keep you right now, i couldn't help any of you with comfort or entertainment or listening, or giving you space, perhaps i'll help by letting you hate me

there will be no more journal entries with any real sort of emotion for an indetermined length of time, i will still be checking email, and once in a while on part of irc

in the interest of narcissism and for those who will worry if they don't know, i will continue to update with housing and moving situations