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[hoveringsombrero]

ARRG so many words, don't know how to get them out, i saw x bf yesterday, talked for HOURS, he ACTUALLY apoligized, i was never expecting that NEVER, it was actually alot of fun seeing him, and right now i'm in a state of happyandsad, slightly weepy, happy that i saw him and it was cool, and that i came home to mexican and was HAPPY to be with him (told him so too much hehe) sad because i did really love x, and we had sooo many plans and dreams (ackweepyagain) and i sooo wanted them to come true, happy becuase things are good in live now, and i don't need promisses and plans, things are good NOW, i am happy NOW, despite stresses of work and moving, NO MORE STRESSES of bf not around, of broken promises and lies.

i wasn't completly aware till now how secure my life is, how secure i am with ME and the mexican, and how secure i am with WHERE I AM in life and where i am yet to go

sadandhappy
happyandsad

i am
i am me
i am what i wanted to be
I AM LIVING MY DREAMS!!

lol shit, i just remembered i gave x this url, hehe
ohwell, i'm full disclosure girl now anyway
hiya ducky if you're reading this