lordy lordy

i ache
i ache everywhere

it went away for a while then it came back
i should take ibuprofen instead of another vicodin but i can't find ibuprofen

geeeze
i just over-exerted myself today
i do this all the time
i start to feel better and then just decide i can go out and act like i'm better

kal on fon.
told me to take another vicodin and try to sleep.
i needed reassurance otherwise i'd worry and then negate half the effects of the medication. i am just a ball of pathetic pain, yes. it's time for one more antibiotic too, so be good eris, eat the pills, try to sleep.
ugh.

coming back from the dead

oh man i had a baaaad night
i have to work tomorrow so i don't think i'm going anywhere today
i needed to get my book for my class because i have a test on Monday
but i can do that Monday morning, this test is still mostly review from last class so i'll be ok.

i just don't want to risk getting worse when i must get better to work tomorrow night.

geeze i made a couple whiny-ass posts last night.
i feel drained like i battled with death all night.

too damn cold and feverish, i think my sudden feel better is that my fever broke.
my entire face feels bruised, like my head swelled up two sizes and is now back to normal.

working for two days is going to be hard i think, but i should be ok.
i think it's going to be another week before i'm really better.
that sucks so much.
i'm so lucky this happened now, i would be so screwed if i had been calling in sick all this time.

going to try to eat something to give my body fighting fuel, then back to sleep, i don't intend to leave my bed all day. i still ache but it's not as bad.

and so on and so forth

my father ate himself into the ER again
decided he'd been doing good, eating well, dropping weight
decided that fried chicken at night would be just peachy

damnit, i would like to keep that guy around for a while, he's only 55 this year.
i had a long feverish babble talk with SIG last night and did some research on that gastric bypass thing, before i began my nightlong struggle with the angel of death.
from what i could find he's still young enough.
despite his weight and age he's got no heart problems, and he's had his blood pressure pretty much normal for about a year now.

he is not receptive to even consulting a dr to see if he would be a good candidate.
i'm going to see if i can find a place that sends out some good information on it and start sending him literature on it.


anyway, and my mother's mother had another stroke
so my mother decided to tirade on me about my rent and bills,
when i only asked her for a schoolbook.
she did apologize and said she was taking out her stress about her mother on me.
and said to buy the book and she'd pay me back for it.
i'm just gonna buy the damn book, if she remembers and tries to give me money for it i won't refuse, but i'm not asking for it.

ugh. parents.

fever dreams

i dreamed that someone set up a cam
in which you could prevent them from slowly killing themselves via pills or bodily harm

by buying things or clicking on things
sorta like 'sponsor my life'

like a twisted pledge drive, if enough things were bought, donated, clicked on, then the person would take an antidote for something they took, bandage up a bleeding place, or paramedics on standby would come in and pump stomach or whathaveyou if needed.

ugh, still so sick and achy am i.