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nothing?
nothing?
tra la la?

tub

i should take a bath
since there's a tub in this room

mmmmmbath

and then sleep

heh

"tom bodet here, sorry to wake you but you asked for it,
if it helps any there's fresh coffee in the lobby from 7 to 10"

i like the wake up calls that actually say things, instead of just ring and dead air
well after being an idiot all night over someone who could care less i just slept
so i'm taking a short bath now.

i just ....
i just didn't think i could be in stockton for 2 times now and him not even want to try to see me
i don't know what's going on but i probably just need to move on.
either he'll get over it and i'll be one of the important things again
or he won't

either way getting better at this being alone and taking care of myself thing will help

bath.

short bath

i'm a bad motel guest
i overflowed the tub
sortof on purpose i was seeing how full i could get it
=o

i am going to go put more mins on my phake fon
and hope that i can refrain from using them harassing kal
when did i turn into pathetic eris again?

even if it isn't the case that he just plain doesn't wanna see me
(which when he talks to me he insists is the case, just stuff going on
more important stuff ya'know)
how am i not suppose to feel just plain unwanted?

either way back to the dug mantra

if he doesn't wanna see you he doesn't wanna see you
get over it you stupid bitch
you cannot FORCE him to care, move on.

ok.
in a few minutes, after i stop procrastinating, i'm going to get dressed
leave.
and try to have a good day by myself
if i can be good company for other people,
i should be good company for myself, right?

buy fon mins
pay car payment
go to work