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Sep. 8th, 2001
curiouser and curiouser
Sep. 8th, 2001 06:02 pmi was thinking (uhoh)
pondering, wondering
is it possible to pick a form of insanity and then acquire it?
for an hypothetical example:
say i woke up one morning and thought "hey having an obsessive compulsive disorder sounds REALLY NEAT!" could i, in fact, become truly oc just from doing on a day to day basis what an oc would do?
and what about my near total lack of attention span?
would it be possible that i might fail and instead gain more sense of focus?
or just succeed and drive myself properly crazy
i knew a girl once who pretended she had multiple personality disorder, in reality whenever she got in trouble (from parents or say cheating on a bf) she'd claim no knowledge and blame it on the other personality, her own personal scapegoat, she's pretty much a (to use a medical term) whacko now tho. but not in the mpd sense, she gave up that game a few years ago.
pondering, wondering
is it possible to pick a form of insanity and then acquire it?
for an hypothetical example:
say i woke up one morning and thought "hey having an obsessive compulsive disorder sounds REALLY NEAT!" could i, in fact, become truly oc just from doing on a day to day basis what an oc would do?
and what about my near total lack of attention span?
would it be possible that i might fail and instead gain more sense of focus?
or just succeed and drive myself properly crazy
i knew a girl once who pretended she had multiple personality disorder, in reality whenever she got in trouble (from parents or say cheating on a bf) she'd claim no knowledge and blame it on the other personality, her own personal scapegoat, she's pretty much a (to use a medical term) whacko now tho. but not in the mpd sense, she gave up that game a few years ago.
my mouse is fuxord
kal thought some fake hair was wrapped around one of the rollbars inside and that's what was preventing it from easily going left and right, i unwrapped the piece of fake hair and it's still having issues, i can't see anything else in there that should be preventing the bar from rolling smoothly
so this is how i'm using my mouse, push buttons with right hand, move insides with left index finger
*sigh*
the network is now working, if only i hadn't broken the stupid nic card thingy on my laptop
kal thought some fake hair was wrapped around one of the rollbars inside and that's what was preventing it from easily going left and right, i unwrapped the piece of fake hair and it's still having issues, i can't see anything else in there that should be preventing the bar from rolling smoothly
so this is how i'm using my mouse, push buttons with right hand, move insides with left index finger
*sigh*
the network is now working, if only i hadn't broken the stupid nic card thingy on my laptop
lots of things
Sep. 8th, 2001 10:42 pmi found THE best, most wonderful stuff i want to use as hair in wal-mart last night!!!
hairwise:
i need
bleach (my dark brown roots are quite long now)
manic panic (blue and black? red and black?)
can i cornrow my own entire head by myself i wonder?
i have to get a job
i guess downtown is the best bet since it's easy to get to
i wonder if i should go for the min wage easy to get, try to find the least stressful in that category
or if i should brave the evil temp agency circuit
why can't someone just give me a nice, quiet, sit in cubicle doing spreadsheets or paper work or memos or phones job without harassing me about my hair, insisting i smile enough to make my face hurt and insisting i socialize within the office drama matrix
blah blah teleblah
hairwise:
i need
bleach (my dark brown roots are quite long now)
manic panic (blue and black? red and black?)
can i cornrow my own entire head by myself i wonder?
i have to get a job
i guess downtown is the best bet since it's easy to get to
i wonder if i should go for the min wage easy to get, try to find the least stressful in that category
or if i should brave the evil temp agency circuit
why can't someone just give me a nice, quiet, sit in cubicle doing spreadsheets or paper work or memos or phones job without harassing me about my hair, insisting i smile enough to make my face hurt and insisting i socialize within the office drama matrix
blah blah teleblah
(no subject)
Sep. 8th, 2001 10:44 pmi just want to go back to school
programmers aren't expected to be normal or social in general
programmers aren't expected to be normal or social in general
