lovely

talk about a downer

story of my life:

whoever: "hey eris, soandso is mad at you cause they're mad at them"
eris: "WHAT? since when?"
email from whoever: "sorry you got mad at me"
email from whomever's boyfriend: "you're a horrible person for (list of reasons)"

i can count on two hands the times this has happened, oh YEAH i'm loved

also there's that lovely reoccurring situation of "hi i invite you to next to nothing but you're supposed to invite me to EVERTHING, especially when i've got other plans that you're aware of. or you're not my friend"

julie, read email

seriously.

i should not drink at all
lately, every time it either ends in me getting sick or someone getting mad at me

i think i prefer the sick

everything's been quiet since my drunk post around 11, leslie and fleeky are upstairs being gross in spanky's room, spanky is still drunk and was disturbed so i let him go lay down to sleep in my room,

heh, he came back down, still drunk so he's having trouble with the sleep thing

cam is still on, i need to be leaving it on, also i need to find my usb hub cause i've got more than one cam, he's babbling something about disciples, i'm mostly sober, but not enough to be able to pay attention to typing and listen to him so i'm a little confused.
he's telling me the names of all his teachers, hehe

sucks to be me, i hope something just got all misunderstood or i'm just drunk and imagining things cause i'd like to go back to being primarily happy.

=(

something crashed upstairs

spanky got scared and went into the pantry

fuck i'm gonna get kicked out

i retract anything that has gone through my head, I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYWHERE WHERE I KNOW ANYBODY
I WANT TO LIVE IN A CAVE!!!

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ohmygod

i got an email reply from Bruce Campbell
i wasn't paying attention and almost deleted it!
was short but very nice

he is mifty!
so i've changed my mind, i'll let him have a role in my next movie now ;)

oh wow, i just saw the date, he sent it on the 20th, that was a pretty quick response
SUPER NIFTY!

allright

i AM going to remove my eyebrows
they'll grow back if it's too frightening
the worst kal will do is mock me

no, not right now,
probably not right now

k

i'm going to go shower, probably cut some bangs, remove eyebrows, then blue my hair
i think i'm going to put black streaks in it too
oooh i'm gothy!
but a manic panic or other type of black not the perm kind

yup!

damn

the dye is in spanky's room or bathroom somewhere, so i am thwarted from that aspect

i cut bangs which i like, and i removed my eyebrows
i look ghastly with no eyebrows so i don't think i'll repeat this
i also can't abide by something that is absolutely necessary for me to do before leaving the house cosmetic wise (drawing on eyebrows)
that aside it's kinda fun
and my forehead feels really clean, heh

before and after:

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i'd like to bid you good day, but that doesn't quite apply so i'll just bid you day.

ok, pretty much if you see me post or see me online that means the cam is on

my hair is sticking everywhere, i'm responding to email
if i get stupid and cry i'll point the cam at something more interesting ;)

ahhhh!

monitor is flickering madly

edit: right as i posted it stopped, weird.

blah

christ! i'm being a very pathetic person
stop me before i start threatening to fake suicide
bruce campbell includes a recipe for fake blood in his book so believe me it'd be VERY bloody

this cam thing is very strange, something about my face has changed since last i was on cam a lot (no it's not the eyebrows!)
something about my face looks older but at the same time more relaxed to me
and even if i'm upset like every 4th picture i'm smiling or half smiling

well kal forcibly got his brakes fixed, he left to the bay area yesterday and only got as far as stockton (i dunno why he went that way, that just occurred to me) i guess there was a bang or something and fluid shot everywhere
but anyhow it's fixed

talking to kal on the phone, he said he was going to call the car place and find out what the hell is up with our blue zoom this week, but i'm not going to ask him about it because i think he feels like i'm bugging him when i do. i hope all that gets worked out soon.
i need to take anny to get her shots and i was going to see if leslie would take me, but i would have had to make an appt. and i would have had to ask her the day before, blah blah blah
i don't suppose i can take a cat on a bus ;) i'll figure something out

speaking of anny, she's taken to crawling behind me when i'm sitting in a chair and falling asleep, feels like she crawled in the top part of my shorts
my lower back is touching fuzzyness

yo-yo

i'm all smiley now
talking to kal usually does that

jesus we drank a lot of soda!

i have no idea where leslie, fleeky and spanky are, when i left my room the other room looked empty, but i've heard the front door open and close and feet on stairs

no notes were left for me *shrug*

yipe, i'm eating on cam, i shall refrain from looking at the preview window


Current Food: crackers and cheese and salami

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pretending i'm gigglecam

except i'll realize i'm not when i don't get a thousand responses ;)

What TV show(s) do you miss and wish was still on the air?

more product endorsement

time to dye mah hair!

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ooh hastily drawn on BLACK eyebrows
why do i get the sneaking suspicion that my eyebrows are now going to change shape and colour as often as my hair?

hiya

i was reading my friends list and saw that my brother, biff_lomax, had posted so i grabbed the phone and was about to call him and then the phone rang and i thought "oh he called me first!" so i answered it but it was GIGGLES!
it was nifty, she was watching my cam so i showed her some stuff i bought.
giggles is SUPER NIFTY! that's my complement of the day
super rad is cool too but then i get aquabats songs in my head

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ok then

off goes the computer for a while

LOOK! spanky cleaned the kitchen!

also, ragdolly's got some new links

barelyevil.com

fashion for freaks

FUCK!

what the hell is going on?
ahh news just said that that guy who killed people is still being searched for

there's a huge search helicopter going in circles behind my apt, noisy as hell with huge searchlights

i'm afeard. i found matches but i dun wanna go back out there to smoke, nuh uh

i locked the doors

yipe.

the news said they think he might have gone to seattle, then they said oh they don't think he's got the money so he's probably still in sacramento

SCARY HELIOMACHINE FLYING AROUND SCARING ME

my hair is made of molded plastic

k, scary flying machine went away, i think i shall brave my front yard for a mint chocolate smoke

explain this to me:
"thank who raped. thank u who has fired.thank u all women who not silent. UNITE!!!!" (sic)

distressed

my wallet is still full of money
i wish it weren't

it's stressing me out, there's just always more things that need money than the existing amount of money

i hate money.
i'll be less stressed about it when it's all gone.
well i'll still be stressed out but just the normal everyday thing

this is why i don't want a job, money sucks, just like books suck, it ends, it runs out.
i hate paycheques, it's disappointing to see a cheque that you won't see a dime of in reality
it's all essentially BRIBE MONEY, you don't pay rent to live somewhere you bribe landlord to keep from getting kicked out
you pay smud (or p g &e or whatever) a bribe so they won't turn off your electricity
you pay pac bell a bribe so they won't turn off your phone
you pay comcast (whatever cable you've got or dsl company) so they won't take away your mtv and porn downloads

food and toys and STUFF are actually things you buy, that's fun, nobody's going to kick you out or send you to jail if you don't buy them

sucky, i'd go live in an anarchy village except for the fact that i LIKE the stuff i have to bribe all these people not to take away from me

i must keep the manner of living that i'm accustomed to.