kitten

i'm mostly probably sure it's a boy
it tried to nurse my face last night so i found a walmart and got formula and a bottle and it seems much happier and it's drinking and eating more

( 3 rather large digital camera pictures of kitten )

should should should

spanky and i walked to taco bell to eat
i've really got to watch myself, i do something big like walk all around downtown with spanky and it tires me the fuck out for a week, so i sit cause i'm tired and sleep a lot
and that kind of defeats the purpose of the whole exercise part
so even though i didn't get solid sleep (kitty kept waking me up to give it bottle) and felt like ass, i decided that walking with spanky would be good for me
ugh, i thought my legs were going to fall off on the way there and i was horribly hungry
lots of pretty houses and a little madmade lake on the way there
then i dragged spanky into ACE hardware because i wanted to look at sandpaper and stripper and woodstain cause i want to re-finish my piano (SHOULD be here this weekend) and i've decided on a red mahogany

then i looked at signs, i REALLY wanted to get an 'EXIT' sign to put on the outside of the front door and an 'employees only' sign to put on the downstairs bathroom door, but i thought kal might bitch, but i was going to buy them anyway and ask before i stuck them up, but i forgot
anyway, then walked home

i SHOULD clean but i don't want to
but i'm going to anyway
after i finish typing this i'm going to go upstairs and check on kitty that i left in bedroom
then i'll come back down here and -at the very least- tidy the kitchen
i also SHOULD blue my hair some more, as it's rather GREEN, but i dunno if i feel like it
blah blah lazy blah

i refuse, i will do SOMETHING(s) then i shall be lazy

i fear my viewing all my email on a dialup so i'm likely going to ignore it till Saturday unless i go use qt's computer
i also have a shitload of digital camera pictures that i SHOULD organize into galleries before Saturday so i can just upload them as soon as cable modem is up

should should should
get busy eris

:/

kitten is even more listless since i came back
it's eating ok, it's using the litter box ok,
it just seems tireder and tireder

i dunno where qt is and i'm afraid if i go over there i'll cry so i emailed her
courtney was sweet and recommended a less expensive vet for me to try so hopefully qt can take me by there tomorrow
if she's busy with work then maybe she can just drop me off then pick me up later :/
i just don't know what else to do and it's upsetting me horribly
i don't deal well with this stuff

and i wish i'd quit doing this to me. no eris couldn't wait and get a kitten from a shelter where she would KNOW that it was healthy
no! eris had to subconsciously put herself in an upsetting situation because eris believes she's not supposed to be happy

blah
i think i'll watch a movie or something, i dunno
i feel listless myself