hm

pictures of fountain and stuff from the gigantic mall up in the potm, (after cut).

we went to dundra con a bit, saw dom, i was disgruntled and tired, spanky was just mopey, i took video of chandeliers and carpets and statues and feet and random people, and some people fighting in armor with sticks, i couldn't tell if it was sca people or that thing that's like the sca but with fantasy stuff *shrug*
too many tards

crowds of people make me most uncomfortable when i think i look funny (i.e. brown hair) i'm very uncomfortable this way, i'm slouching more, i don't feel like there's any purpose to even trying to look nice, blah, silly eris

anyhow, i got some stickers and some books, and then we came home and i went almost instantly to bed

crap! i forgot i'm supposed to finish washing kal's clothes!

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so yeah

up during the daytime all weekend, and now i'm up all night
ugh, screw you guys i'm tired of trying to live in your world

so we didn't even get to the application stage yet
*sigh*

none of us expected to find a place in 3 days, but there was hope, so no luck this weekend, so now i hope for luck with kal calling the apt complexes we saw the outside of

everything is annoying me, mah soul itches, bitch bitch whine whine

so anyway, after i slept spanky and i went and got groceries, and then went to wal-mart for painkillers, and i got a weekly world news and, shhh! cigarettes a kind of camel i'd never gotten, "Turkish Gold - Smooth & Mellow Turkish Blend" the guy in Snatch was named Turkish, cool name



do they make calamine for the soul?

insomnia

amused

i love pages like this, i should send that url to my mother so she stops asking me if a story or an email is true

oh ouch

sitting here trying to think of the least self pitying way to write this, don't know if i'll succeed so at least i'll disable responses

one of the two or three people online that could actually hurt me with their words, did so, and i'm in no position to argue, and yet another in the endless string of eris apology emails goes out

so here's my turn, you all win, i tried to partially hide because seems when i try to help i only make it worse, and then that made it worse. irony

as much as i love all of you who have been my friends, i can't fight to keep you right now, i couldn't help any of you with comfort or entertainment or listening, or giving you space, perhaps i'll help by letting you hate me

there will be no more journal entries with any real sort of emotion for an indetermined length of time, i will still be checking email, and once in a while on part of irc

in the interest of narcissism and for those who will worry if they don't know, i will continue to update with housing and moving situations

P.S.

"Daria sarcastithon 3000" as close as it gets to fixing the world right now