yuk

i don't feel so good, icky girl stuff
i thought i only had $5 left but turns out i have $16.50!!!
small things make me happy

now if only kal didn't have the car . . .

WOW, uhm, ok.

this post is to let IRC people know i didn't leave mad and i'm just trying to figure out what i'm thinking about this

amusing things happened in #analove which are at the moment largely inconsequential, then Kal, it seems, annoyed one of the ircops Oleg, and got banned from analove then klined (CORRECTION: i'm stupid and say kline and kill interchangeably)

if you pay attention you will know that he and i try to stay out of each other's issues, except when he gets protective boyfriend .....but this time, i am an ircop and i'm his girlfriend, and RIGHT NOW i cannot in good conscience be on warpednet until i figure out how i feel about this

i have a tendency to cause disturbances and react and think without speaking at times, between that and probably standard procedure i was given a long lecture by Cryo before being given ircops about the proper behavior for an ircop, and well this kinda contradicts this...

i'm allowed to kline people that annoy me?
*blink*
then i'm having issues with the lecture about keeping personal feelings out of ircopage

perhaps he was being extreme in his lecture to get a point across?
perhaps i'm just naive in thinking it was possible for people to keep personal feelings out of things

i just don't know what i think yet
kal is hurt
i'm confused

perhaps more pondering is needed

ICQ is on for now in case people on irc want to contact me

disappointed.

becoming sad.
don't understand.
wish i did.
tiny non-sentences.
defiantly sad.

i have no idea what i'm going to do.

yet another group of people alienated.
hey i lasted longer this time.

uncertainty.
disillusionment.
sad.

WOW

i just saw a geeksquad.com commercial!!!