this song

also is a reminder of club times

smokey black light dance my ass off club times

circles

this was not where i thought i'd be 3 years ago
in some ways, in allot of ways, it's better
lots has changed
yet nothing has

kal is out with his friends, dug's coming over to take me out

yes dug,
when my nearly 5 year relationship with dug ended,
did i ever think i'd even SPEAK to him again?

i thought, i thought the thing with kal was just to be fuck friends
i thought that maybe dug would get his shit together and come try to get me back(stupid bitch that i was i wanted that at one point)
i didn't think that things would get better

kal takes damn good care of me
kal is my best friend
and dug is back around

not but just and
my brain doesn't always have a handle on things
Cryo keeps asking me, WHY i let Dug in my life at all
i can come up with many possible explainations
i don't think any are the answer
have i forgiven dug?
not really.
will i ever?
probably not.
Why do i hang out with him?
i don't know.
he's fun? despite being a fuck up he's a nice guy?
questions questions no answers
do i need answers?
i don't know

dug at the door...
more later.

a night of ponderances

back from out with dug
he and i kinda talked about some of the stuff in my last entry

kal is home *bigsillygrin*
he smells like hotel tho
heh

nstuff

well screw you hippy

what the hell is up with you people?
only responding to the inane entries?

i woke up
my neck hurts
i went potty
kal and spanky left to run errands
i think i might be hungry

HAPPY?

(no subject)

grr
it wasn't pissed off it was only a feisty mood
but then i rebooted kal's computer and his dialup promts for password and i couln't remember it

so a bit pissy
then the usual inanity in # telling me the password was humphump or shit like that

i didn't feel like being on the laptop yet
the world is pissing me off

i'm sure after i listen to music i'll be back to feisty

(no subject)

freaky monkey people on tv

well damnit

stupid eris