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ok lets see, didn't get around to updateing right away, stress and tiredness overtook me

we went to the startrek thingy, it was DAMN COOL, they transported us in one part and it's bugging the hell out of me cause i can't figure out how they did it, i can figure it out all except for the floor *sigh* i WILL know some day

well we did that thing and it was cool, the right after it we went to Quark's bar, which was cool but missing Dabo tables and dabo girls, (sighi'matreckie) there were quite a few things i took issue with being that i'm such a nerd, but it was still DAMN COOL

haveing issues dealing with a few things, must rest fingers, cont. next entry

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*sigh* ok monday .. i slept alot, but BB and i wanted to go out and see more ov vegas before we leave, so we went to the venetion(sp) walked thru the OHSOBEAUTIFUL inside/outside, didn't get to ride the gondolas cause they were sold out, went down to the casino, gambled abit, still have quarters in my pocket, cute lil floor drink girl brought me possibly the STRONGEST white russian i've ever had .. i GAKED alot

then we went out and rode the moveing sidewalks OHSOFUN!! silly fun
then we went to a all night buffett and now we're back :)

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*sigh* now the serious post

i go home today,
i go back to situations that are the same and haven't been fixed,
i go back to most likely being a royal bitch to the mexican no matter how much i miss him and i don't know how to pre-empt that
i go back to new situations that i dont know how i'm going to deal with
i go back to old worrys that i hope i've left somehwere in the air on one ov my recent flights
i go back to a house that doesn't feel like home anymore


tell me i'm over thinking and i'll agree with you
tell me that by worry-ing/wonder-ing that i won't be as able to deal with life as i have while being away may cause it to happen

remind me i have friends
remind me to grok
remind me to be me
remind me to BE

it's my birthday in around a week, i have a p.o. box so i'll probably try to whore for presents, as i probably won't get none from anyone near ....

this is the post whre i put depressing thoughts in an entry, hit send and let them leave me
at least that's the idea

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i'm tired
i'm discontented
my shoulders hurt

my kingdom for a massage

i did just have an encourageing talk with my father about the houseing situation, i just was really hopeing that it would have been worked out while i was gone, so i didn' have to deal with it

wishfull thinking

it's hard unbraiding fake purple hair from real purple hair, confuses me

there must be some prufundity here

here i sit unbraiding and out in the othe room cyd sits braiding

my life is filled with weird balances and cycles

no matter how much you people make fun of me that pattern of 2's that happened at eriscon freaked me out

anyhow, this IS THE LAST POST FROM VEGAS unless i post right before i leave to airport


screw you guys, i'm going home

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off to the airport

leaving las vegas .....

come wave to my plane, i'll be the girl in the ponytail with the not-hers evil inside shirt and the confused expression