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[hoveringsombrero]

*sigh* now the serious post

i go home today,
i go back to situations that are the same and haven't been fixed,
i go back to most likely being a royal bitch to the mexican no matter how much i miss him and i don't know how to pre-empt that
i go back to new situations that i dont know how i'm going to deal with
i go back to old worrys that i hope i've left somehwere in the air on one ov my recent flights
i go back to a house that doesn't feel like home anymore


tell me i'm over thinking and i'll agree with you
tell me that by worry-ing/wonder-ing that i won't be as able to deal with life as i have while being away may cause it to happen

remind me i have friends
remind me to grok
remind me to be me
remind me to BE

it's my birthday in around a week, i have a p.o. box so i'll probably try to whore for presents, as i probably won't get none from anyone near ....

this is the post whre i put depressing thoughts in an entry, hit send and let them leave me
at least that's the idea