busy busy day....

[hoveringsombrero]

shit happens, stuff happened yesterday that prevented me from getting stamps

i'm in an odd kind of numb state, i'm not upset, i'm not panicked, i just don't care anymore, shit is just going to keep falling apart around me, i'm going to keep having to struggle to keep things working, fuck it all, why worry about it,

heh that all sounds rather suicidal, i'm in a good mood i think, i'm just sick and goddamn tired of every time good things happen bigger bad things have to happen

so hey, it's the fucking happy christmas season, i'm thinking p'raps i have fun with my good things and maybe if i ignore the bad things they'll just go away, or i'll be so happily in denial i won't notice

good things:

fun presents (YAY video camera)
4 cams even if i can't get them all going all the time
a cute little townhouse to live in that's not falling apart
food in the kitchen
fun roommate (:( *miss*)
fun, understanding mexican
good, loyal friends
a lake i can walk to
part of a family that cares about me
a boyfriend's mother that is cool and not trying to kill me
a desk that is all mine that i can glue stuff to
the weirdest stuff animal collection i've ever seen

i know there's a lot more but i can't remember now

i've got A LOT to do today, i forgot that kal's mother and brother are coming over as well, i don't know how they'll react to the cams, cause i know my father and brother won't mind

brother is to be coming over earlier and bringing me wrapping paper

ok stuff doing, off i go

Comments

[cyn.livejournal.com]

i've been numb for a week. is it the weather? the solstice? the busyness of everything else around us?

who knows.

happiest holidays to you and Kal... have fun and food - that makes all days good :)

HUGS!!!
-c

[qtkat.livejournal.com]

oh my god, what have i missed? i'm a bad friend.
=*(

if it helps any, i'm sporting your t-shirt today. : /

[peekaboo.livejournal.com]

it's always such a good idea to make a "good things" list when you get down...i think that i might do that too...