hoveringsombrero | progress?

attempted welfare office, have to go back tomorrow.
mentally revisiting parts of my past and rebuilding some bridges.
why?
don't know.
i'm forgetful and largely incapable of hate.
if it wasn't too bad of a parting i'm likely to forget the bad bits.

i've been smart and avoided a few still burned bridges,
because i didn't burn them.
one her in particular,
despite what she thought/thinks of me,
once meant a very lot to me.
but i'm not sure she's capable of grasping that.
and the reasons she burned the bridge were either baffling,
or about parts of me that aren't and haven't changed.

another her has been on my mind off and on with no clear reason why.
was pondering emailing,
instead responded to an entry without even thinking about it.
heh, i speak when i have something to say, it was a good something.
she was once nearly my world.

it's been an oddly good day
despite heat, and no money and not getting much done.
my brain feels zenny.
heh

don't piss in my zen, motherfucker!