well hello there

[hoveringsombrero]

i've got about three pages full of a ramble in my binder i take to work
it's almost a moral struggle

i'm coming to notice what a large effect i sometimes have on people i become involved with
(friends and etc)
just makes me wonder if i have any right to go fucking with other people's lives and reality

it's still going to be a big thing that i ponder and try to grasp but one thing occurred to me just now
just now,
as i sit here in bed
in my pink pajamas
pondering..

i am eris after all
i cause chaos.
i'm going to upset the balance in other's lives
it's the nature of the beast.
is this something i should be allowed to do?
maybe not.
is there anything i can do about it?

short of hiding in my room and never talking to anyone?
i'm not sure that there is ...

do the ends justify the means?
are the scant few that are affected positively by association with me
worth those i piss of and upset?

i have many questions but few answers.
does anyone have my answers?

as i slightly crazy erisperson has said
just be.

DON'T PANIC

heh

Comments

[m-leprae.livejournal.com]

hiding in my room and never talking to anyone is fun!!

[kendryk.livejournal.com]

bah, i tried to message your phone, and when I did, you logged off, so therefor, you suck, and here is a run on sentence as your punishment, and i hope you learned your lesson, and hey, did you get your package yet (?), I sent it several days ago, so you should have it by now, and I found the back to the gameboy, so you can have it too, so your batteries dont fall out, and hey, email me or something so I know you got it, and have a happy day, and I wont put a period at the end of this, in case i think of something else to say later

[themattisgod.livejournal.com]

Also you need to remember that people choose to be they way they are sometimes for reasons that you can't understand. Don't let other people guilt you for their own actions/thoughts.

[revxaos.livejournal.com]

i'm coming to notice what a large effect i sometimes have on people i become involved with
(friends and etc)
just makes me wonder if i have any right to go fucking with other people's lives and reality

You have no choice. If you exist within someone's life, you will cause chaos and change within it. The closer to a person you are, the more of an effect you will have on their life/existance.

The only way to truly have no effect on someone, is to not exist for them. Which would mean removing all memories of yourself within that individual as well.

So embrace the chaos that you spread through reality, like ripples in the pool of life. And simply be aware of the ripples you cause.

Namaste,
Beau

[jvtazz.livejournal.com]

[jvtazz.livejournal.com]

Name: Eris

[muscles-malone.livejournal.com]

jeez u sure are "interesting" i mean that in a good way. my neighbour is called eris and thats the rarest name going i think. just thought u might like to know that, but i doubt u did :)