hoveringsombrero | sorting out thoughts

he's dumping me in attempt to not hurt me anymore
i still don't understand how that's suppose to make any sense other than a bullshit excuse

he claims he still loves me and cares
he claims he wants to be my friend and be around for me

he called when i stormed offline
i'm mad he did it in email and aim
he sounded very upset

i just can't do the friends thing
after four years

i told him that i'm not going to do the friends thing, i am not going to contact him and that if he means even a little of what he said and it is not - as he claims - some bullshit excuse, and he really does care and doesn't want to do this then when he gets his shit together he'll seek me out.

but after the one thing happening today that i was paranoid about but really didn't think was going to happen, happening. i really think that's it.

he made me hope
he made me love
me made me happy

he broke my heart.