bleh

why doesn't the moral high ground come with pay?

and why does it still feel like failure?

indeed

things are never as bad as i think they are.
sometimes it takes over 24 hours awake to put things in perspective.
(are you seeing the colors yet, Ralph?)
and a couple good talks with old friends.

my oldest online friend i had a good talk with the other night
i get drunk-like epiphanies when talking to him sometimes
shit will just babble out that i didn't realize i was thinking or feeling until i said it.

then while i was out today with peanut
somehow GRG came up in the conversation
so i picked up my fon and called him

GRG!
had a nice looooong phone conversation

of the old group that i use to camp with every summer
he's the only one who stayed a real friend

everyone else is married, breeding, trying to breed .... in the military?
GRG nearly joined the military?

strange strange

D went navy, a computer nerd even in the navy
and an ex of mine is doing something with computers
sleep dep sleep dep ... what was it
programs that authorize something somewhere to do something else
GAHH!

i'll remember after sleep i'm sure.

everything is circular.

what?

while doing a google image search for something random
(probably your mom)
i found myself downloading Final_thesis_ver2.doc
now why did i click on that

why am i reading this?
is this sleep depravation or just me

DO YOU HAS?

where?

holy crapsack in a bucket, batman

was going to try to stay awake longer to try to make sleep normalish

but can't stay alive anymore
must.sleep.or.die.


i won't play your reindeer games
no matter how much you kick my plant.

huh?

gotosleeperisSHOOOSH