dear diary

today i did work for TWELVE HOURS
ugh!

however now i am home, and things will commence in this order

pizza rolls
milk
donut
book
masturbate
SLEEP


much indeed.

what?

this is the time of year i want to revert

this is the time of year i seriously wonder if i'm ever going to age.
i don't often pass for 18 anymore, but i wonder if it's just my expressions.

this is me, JUST NOW

just showered, no makeup,
i'm 26!

i know other people my age who look mid-30s

and then i met up with vlad(stragoi) again, what is he? a year younger than me?
he doesn't look a minute older than when i last saw him, years and years ago.

i know, i know,
still in one's 20's is still very young
just seems like i should *look* older than i do

it's not that i feel older, no
i feel both at once, i feel very old, and yet still 12 years old
at the same time.