OH.MY.FUCKING.GOD.

i have a bad habit, when i'm bored i still read journals i shouldn't
when asked why the closest i can come up with is morbid amusement.
and nothing they can say will hurt me anymore.

however it can still piss me off.

let me tell you a story.
once upon a time i was dating a kalthrax
because we were unable to pinpoint exactly when we started dating
he decided our anniversary was thanksgiving, because he took me to his mother's
and that being our first official couple thing.

what was happening last year around thanksgiving? hmmm
lets see, my father's mother got sick and i was all in pieces about curtis of steel being all upset
i was sick for reasons to be discovered later
and that kalthrax person had, out of the blue, decided that he needed to work on his problems with being able to talk to me, so he used enlisted pinkish to be a go between

i was lonely, confused, but feeling all kinds of better that drew was, out of the blue, making this big effort.

what a load of shit.

*ahem* so i was looking forward to seeing drew on thanksgiving, i was housesitting my mother's house
i think i was expecting to go to his mother's then back to my mother's and then was hoping for a nice quiet just us at home thing.

since i didn't journal it i cannot remember what his excuse was for why he didn't come see me.
so what did i do?
yeah.

hmmm and what did drew do?
littleblondgirl
yes, this is what drew did while his girlfriend was all alone on their anniversary
isn't that just the sweetest thing, hey?

oh yeah and christmas?
saw family and stuff
tried to call drew
he made out like he was having a horrible day, could barely talk to him,
made me feel like shit that i couldn't help him and his bad day.

but what was he really doing?
yes see previously linked littleblondgirl entry

yeah.

yeah, wow,
so much for any holier than thou feelings at me for being the other woman
when she was, in reality, the other woman since at least November, 2002

when you leave your GIRLFRIEND alone and mopey on your anniversary
and sneak off to be with the other woman,
JUST DUMP THE GIRLFRIEND THEN, guy
stupid guy.
mean guy.

so so so glad no longer with guy.