and i don't go to sleep to dream

my sleep was very busy
i only remember a part of it, the last bit

for some reason i wanted to climb into my window and not go thru the front door, i lived in this big several story brownstone ... somewhere ... there were alleys on either side and in the back, but they alleys were gravel covered

so i was around back about to climb up a fire escape when i heard footsteps coming from my left from the alley up that side
gravel yaknow, *crunch* *crunch* *crunch*
so i froze and this guy came around the corner carrying a stick and a huge AX

so i walked off to my left to go around to the front of the building, la la la walking like nothing's up, as soon as i turn the corner i bolt, but i hear him start running behind me, i get out front of building, realize that i can't get in the front door because i haven't my key that's why i was trying to go in window

see him come 'round the corner brandishing his ax at me, i start running and think, ok i'll scream, it's a city, bound to be someone around, i attempt to scream

cannot.

realize, oh shit, this is a dream.

so i stop, turn around and stare at him
everything goes slow motion as i watch him running towards me
i think, this is not going to end well, i've got to get out of this.

frantically cast my mind about looking for some indication other than not being able to scream and the sudden slow motion, that this is a dream.
i close my "eyes" and i "listen"
finally above the dream noises i hear my swamp cooler
i reach out and grab onto that sound and pull myself towards it
after what seems like forever i start to feel my bed under me, and then pretty soon i'm able to open my eyes

so i stare at the wall for a bit, then get up and go to the bathroom, take a drink, make sure i'm out of the dream, and then i went back to sleep for a bit more.

stupid ax guy CAN'T GET ME!

(no subject)

pinkish: I'm fucking aerodynamic

not your bitch

happy now?

eating soup then going to sleep

i got a bit angry tonight
(it's still my night, shoosh)
and very annoyed.

over something *i* did, or rather didn't do
i think i need to apologize
i say i only want friends who will tell me when i'm being a dumbshit and won't let me get away with stuff.
but there is at least one thing that i don't like being argued with about
but that's why i told people that i was having these issues
so they'd smack some sense into me

*sigh*
i have to wake at 1ish to bid for august schedule

so i better sleep now, look soup all gone,

nekkid

slept about 5 hours then woke to bid
i asked what they had from 6 to 9 start time with sun/mon off

5:45pm - 2:30am

i hope that's not too early for me, but i really liked Sunday/Monday off more than i was expecting.

uck, i hope i can handle that early, still fairly busytime

but! Sunday/Monday off, i like that
one weekend day, and then one weekday.
so one of these mondays eris needs to CALL AND MAKE DOCTORS APPTS
but that still requires money cause aetna is a big stupid EXPENSIVE whore
who is a BAD LAY besides.

stupid aetna.

was up for a bit then went back to bed
it now appears i have completely downloaded clerks and jay and silent bob strike back
bitchin!
dressed and to work soon.