world's fattest anorexic

so i woke up this morning
took a shower
threw up

joy.
decided best not to eat for a while, since either stomach or coughing fits reject food
but i can't very well eat nothing, i'd get dizzy and sick
(stupid food)

so i stopped at chevron beside work and got gatorade and crackers
they didn't have plain crackers (insert annoyed face here) so i got little cheese and cracker sammch things

so i had 2 before i went into work, 2 on first break, 4 for lunch, and gatorade throughout the day.
i should probably be thankful and just live on crackers and gatorade till my next pay cheque
i haven't counted what i have left but i'm sure it's not enough for real food, so i'll just be glad i don't want to eat

very little i can control in my life right now
at least i can keep body happy with me and let it not eat
and then i hopefully will maybe get to payday with $5 or $10 left instead of nothing
next cheque will be small too
erg.

well a four weeks of gatorade and crackers and i should maybe drop another couple inches
that would be a nice side effect

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one shoe one and one shoe off
eris refuses to rhyme and goes to bed

don't be me

this is what happens when you miss too much work
i wanted sushi when i awoke, sushi isn't 'real' food
thought i could call in a takeaway order and pick it up on the way to work, have some before i go into work save the rest for lunch
rolls save for a few hours pretty well

so i got brave and counted my money
$32
dun get paid again till the 24th
i need to get gas soon so it'll be down to $22 either today or tomorrow
school starts tomorrow so i'm just going to have to risk the expired parking pass and hope they don't notice.

lesson is dun get sick
or go to work anyway, don't have anybody to take care of me anymore
=(
i'll just stick to the gatorade and crackers plan
i just might make it to payday
if i just don't eat at all on my days off i have only 7 days of work until payday
so about $3/day to spend on crackers and gatorade

isn't going to work i have school, so i have to eat on mondays too
i'll have to ask a mother or a mexican
ugh.

stupid food.

no

this isn't living this is just existing
i'm not really alive i shouldn't be trying to keep a journal