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i thought i'd be happier when i got to the point where i'd made myself so inaccesable that nobody noticed when i left.
it is nice, however, not to worry people. that is a good thing
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n00dleboy's house, i was going to play gamey but i've cramps today and i didn't feel well so when they started playing i passed out on n00dle's bed.
also i felt it would be good to distance myself from the boys right now, my "hey eris, you probably shouldn't say that" filter was barely functioning.
dave just wouldn't quit talking about EQ
and i managed to not tell him to shut up allready
that would be bad
he takes everything personally.
and then there was a whole other thing which isn't very explainable unless you've hung out with us.
but ... yeah.
*subject jump*
one of my biggest issues is that sometimes i pay to much attention to, or think to much about the people or the opinons of people who don't really give a shit (about anyone, not really me in particular)
and ingore the 'real' people.
i should not be so worried about the fake people hurting my feelings that i end up hurting the feelings of the real. ohmygod, not suppose to admit to having feelings. *gasp!*
this is a half awake babble, i'll probably read this later and giggle my fool ass off.
*subject jump*
also, there's one gamey boy specifically, chris, who is very very very nifty. i forget how nifty and fun he is because we usually only see him with the group, and he's the type that usually deferrs to the louder.
*again*
things are going from uncomfortable to worse in many situations, not to mention a few of mine.
things will work out, they always do.
maybe elsewhere, maybe it's just time to move on.
i posted this with the web client and didn't spell check, how's my spelling sans spell check?
it is nice, however, not to worry people. that is a good thing
i'm at
n00dleboy's house, i was going to play gamey but i've cramps today and i didn't feel well so when they started playing i passed out on n00dle's bed.also i felt it would be good to distance myself from the boys right now, my "hey eris, you probably shouldn't say that" filter was barely functioning.
dave just wouldn't quit talking about EQ
and i managed to not tell him to shut up allready
that would be bad
he takes everything personally.
and then there was a whole other thing which isn't very explainable unless you've hung out with us.
but ... yeah.
*subject jump*
one of my biggest issues is that sometimes i pay to much attention to, or think to much about the people or the opinons of people who don't really give a shit (about anyone, not really me in particular)
and ingore the 'real' people.
i should not be so worried about the fake people hurting my feelings that i end up hurting the feelings of the real. ohmygod, not suppose to admit to having feelings. *gasp!*
this is a half awake babble, i'll probably read this later and giggle my fool ass off.
*subject jump*
also, there's one gamey boy specifically, chris, who is very very very nifty. i forget how nifty and fun he is because we usually only see him with the group, and he's the type that usually deferrs to the louder.
*again*
things are going from uncomfortable to worse in many situations, not to mention a few of mine.
things will work out, they always do.
maybe elsewhere, maybe it's just time to move on.
i posted this with the web client and didn't spell check, how's my spelling sans spell check?
