so

Tuesday morning i woke up to find that our cable got shut off because we is poor and didn't pay
so we went and paid it off and it got turned back on but this is the first time i've turned on my computer since then

we went to see lord of the rings with the tard boys and i invited nadin along, i ended up sitting with just nadin while the boys sat in a different row
things have been all busy and hectic but nothing much is happening

this is not my favorite time of the year at all, i thought i had won and my mother had given up with the getting me to her house on christmas eve. but now she's got a scheme to bribe me with gas money.
i haven't even found biff's present yet, and if i go i also have to have a present for my mother, her husband, my mother's parents ...

makes me wish i had something like valium laying about, but then i wouldn't be able to drive down there anyway
UGH, why can't my family be big drinkers, then i could just drink with them and they'd all be too fucked up to be themselves

i'm weak and my mother is making me feel guilty, so i may yet give in.
and poor kal is going to bear the brunt of it, i am not fun to be anywhere near after being at my mother's house

i wish i could put a forget spell on my mother and her parents so that they wouldn't know i was born, they'd be happier and i wouldn't have to deal with all this

this entry is example #3 of why i haven't been making entries
whine eris whine, i wish it was jan already

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just watched the grinch movie with jim carrey, it was very cute
there's lots of people noises outside, i wonder if someone's having a party or something
from where i sit i can't tell where it's coming from

i feel like i'm on pause and everything around me is fast forward

how many fps is life?

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i disappear so often that hardly anybody notices anymore
i wonder if i'll eventually become invisible
that would suck, invisibility is only cool if you can control it

heh

one of the silly little cheapo games i picked up this week, which is called stardom - your quest for fame, has a picture of a girl on the CD itself that looks a whole lot like ana
which is particularly odd because there are no other pictures of real people in the jacket or in the booklet of the game, it's all leisure suit larry ish cartoony