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ah neeed a beeeger box

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i'm such a geek
i'm watching this on TLC

hello panda

some cute little cookies i got in the weird little grocery store where i take spanky for western union stuff

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i feel like my life has been wasted

there are many things i never did and it seems like time is running out on the things that are still possible to do

i feel like i'm a horrible burden

i wish i didn't have such awful credit so maybe i could just get a student loan and go away to a university for a while

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i think i'm just having my mid-life crisis early

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it's illegal to engage in willing fights with each other? (fight club ish)
shouldn't it be like consensual sex?

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so ok
plans are good.

i wanted to get back to college when we were in lodi
tried to, so i probably owe them money again cause i couldn't get my courses dropped
then car died
then we were back in stockton but that was temporary
and it was 'wait till la' as well

so we moved to sacramento,
don't know how long we'd be here
i get course catalogue in mail
i want to go
but we thought we'd know for sure what would be going on before current semester registration
we still don't know


so plan, gotta get to delta college in stockton and take care of things and get transcripts

then what?
do i convince kal to let me take a chance and enroll HERE?
then what happens if he has to move, i have no place to live, or i have to drop out of classes.

or, since he's gone all week anyway should i go to a community college near my mother, or my father and stay with one of them during the week? so if kal has to move then i can stay and finish the semester?

i think father is closer ...
my brain is dying.

yeah i still want to go to a university or something but it looks like my best bet is to transfer from a community college
which pushes off thinking about the money issue for a while

winning the lottery would be nice, then kal could actually go to college for what he really wants to do
if that's still what he wants to do
seems like all he wants to do is sink his roots into stockton and give up

ugh

i'm going to pass out now
i feel like crap and it's probably all my fault

was going to do another bible study post before i slept
but you'll just have to wait

good, bad, i'm the guy with the gun

i'm bad ash
you're good ash
little goody two-shoes
little goody two-shoes


i got brought a present :) isn't he nifty?
now i'm going out with these two:
kalthrax peloquin
after they come back from putting the second one on the lease

oh hey! lookit the shirt i'm wearing today!



wear the evil dead t-shirt, it summons evil dead toys =D