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on Friday night when kal came home i was waiting with his cake, i lit it, and spanky sang the clapping happy happy birthday song (hehe), we laughed at the heat coming off of the many many candles and then he attempted to blow them out, he got all but one :)
i put it back into the freezer cause he wasn't hungry (it was late) he didn't eat any till Saturday, and he claims he liked it a lot, but you'd have to ask him
today err yesterday now was his actual birthday, he woke me up (tired was i) and spanky and i went along with him to grapevine, then we took the car and went to barnes and noble, and then came back and i read while he finished beating a poor child (a student of our friend Davy's) in warhammer
i've been soo worried about housing problems that i'm not falling asleep well then when i do it's full of random or distressing dreams, i guess i'm trying to resign myself to having to stay here until they move him to the next place (L.A. probably) so as not to get my hopes up and get all worrynessstufflike
the only part of my dreams of last night i remember now was sitting on the edge of my bed with lil and bitching about my nails and explaining why i let them grow out and why i'm waiting to get new fake ones (which i guess i never told her in waking conversation... hmm, kinda trivial i guess)
we saw the movie "Left Behind" i don't remember when, i said it in livejournal somewhere down there, i felt it got preachy and had holes, so kal bought me the book, it's a lot more biblecentric (oooh nifty word) than the movie but somehow it manages not to preach, every time they refer to something in the bible without a verse backing it up, or a verse that sounds mis-quoted, i get the nagging annoying feeling i should be able to remember and point out that it's wrong,
but
*snicker* i'm pretty sure that any bibles i have are packed away in the boxes with the books
anyhow it's led to interesting discussions with kal (so i keep him for his mind too :P) and i'm once again amazed by the huge amounts of guilt that being a christian requires, and kal tells me about forced baptizing (!!) i guess i was lucky in the sect of christian that i was brought up in, if there was any forcing into baptism going on it was purely emotional or psychological (which can be just as bad yes) it just confuses the hell out of me that anyone would think that forcing someone into baptism does any good at all, i would think that would negate the whole thing anyway
and anyway i'm proud of myself that the movie and the book haven't inspired any guilt in me, or any oh i'm a horrible self pitying sinner crap, no regression to repressed childhood here, least not in that area
ok well, i did feel guilt about slacking on meditating and yoga stuff, but descriptions of the guilt ridden self-depreciating bible-thumpers just made me sad
oh and then that "evil sinner" part of me thinks, ooo i should go see what seculdedgrrl thinks about forced baptism
for amusements sake
heh
but.....
laundry.
sleep?
Wieviel muss ich bezahlen?
Dies ist alles, was ich habe!
i put it back into the freezer cause he wasn't hungry (it was late) he didn't eat any till Saturday, and he claims he liked it a lot, but you'd have to ask him
today err yesterday now was his actual birthday, he woke me up (tired was i) and spanky and i went along with him to grapevine, then we took the car and went to barnes and noble, and then came back and i read while he finished beating a poor child (a student of our friend Davy's) in warhammer
i've been soo worried about housing problems that i'm not falling asleep well then when i do it's full of random or distressing dreams, i guess i'm trying to resign myself to having to stay here until they move him to the next place (L.A. probably) so as not to get my hopes up and get all worrynessstufflike
the only part of my dreams of last night i remember now was sitting on the edge of my bed with lil and bitching about my nails and explaining why i let them grow out and why i'm waiting to get new fake ones (which i guess i never told her in waking conversation... hmm, kinda trivial i guess)
we saw the movie "Left Behind" i don't remember when, i said it in livejournal somewhere down there, i felt it got preachy and had holes, so kal bought me the book, it's a lot more biblecentric (oooh nifty word) than the movie but somehow it manages not to preach, every time they refer to something in the bible without a verse backing it up, or a verse that sounds mis-quoted, i get the nagging annoying feeling i should be able to remember and point out that it's wrong,
but
*snicker* i'm pretty sure that any bibles i have are packed away in the boxes with the books
anyhow it's led to interesting discussions with kal (so i keep him for his mind too :P) and i'm once again amazed by the huge amounts of guilt that being a christian requires, and kal tells me about forced baptizing (!!) i guess i was lucky in the sect of christian that i was brought up in, if there was any forcing into baptism going on it was purely emotional or psychological (which can be just as bad yes) it just confuses the hell out of me that anyone would think that forcing someone into baptism does any good at all, i would think that would negate the whole thing anyway
and anyway i'm proud of myself that the movie and the book haven't inspired any guilt in me, or any oh i'm a horrible self pitying sinner crap, no regression to repressed childhood here, least not in that area
ok well, i did feel guilt about slacking on meditating and yoga stuff, but descriptions of the guilt ridden self-depreciating bible-thumpers just made me sad
oh and then that "evil sinner" part of me thinks, ooo i should go see what seculdedgrrl thinks about forced baptism
for amusements sake
heh
but.....
laundry.
sleep?
Wieviel muss ich bezahlen?
Dies ist alles, was ich habe!
