yup

that's what i'm here for
i was the 7th gunman on the grassy knoll

i'll admit guilt to anything to make you happy
except for the Trojan war.

open letter to everyone (end radio silence?)

no-body warned me
i wake up and it's a random thanksgiving today, why is that?
aftermath from an earthquake?
as far as i'm hearing no one was killed

i'm a little annoyed at my friends pages not cooperating

i got an email from my friend dave =D he misses me, last i saw lil is doing well, and no matter what happens cyd seems happier, and that makes me glad, little things for lil bought randomly need to be gathered together, i'm pondering giving the glass grapes i got for cyd to cpr to give to her, she'd probably like that better

and everybody else (including lil) i love you all and you've all been wonderful to me no matter how absent minded and stupid i get, the 3 or 4 of you i can find online at random times when i need someone to talk to

just because i've shut you out doesn't mean i don't care, when things get rocky i decide i'm bothering and annoying people, and whenever i try to help other people i seem to end up making it worse, i blame all my problems on me, and i usually blame other people's problems on me, so logically if i'm the cause, if i just go away then that will help

i feel like someone's going to get offended if i don't make a list of names, but if i do then i'm so forgetful i'll leave out someone important

most recently zuma, i'm still sorry i mistook his concern for attacking, he's a wonderful and understanding man and he deserves much better friends than people like me

i can't decide wether this sounds like an awards speech or a suicide letter, heh, i'm probably not done hiding, i probably won't be till things happening over here in "real life" settle themselves

and "last but not least" i'm worried as hell about nadin, i found the last email she mailed me from and sent her a letter, i don't know how to get ahold of her at all, i'll see if i can find the box with her snail mail on it. that'll take ages to get to her but i don't know what else to do, i don't remember her mother's phone number... *sigh*

i have no way to end this post, to all of you that have been there for me i have no idea how to express my thanks, and again do not interpret my silence as a lack of.

happy random giving thanks day
you'll likely not see me this sappy again, but if someone means something to you, tell them so, today is the day for it.
i decided so.
or quite possibly the trees told me