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anyhow more detail, i didn't do a show on friday cause after i got home from all that xbf seeing, i was hit by insanly painfull cramps, the seeing of the x really affected me alot, but as you can see not in the way i was afraid of, it really seemed to be perfect timeing, i'm really thinking that an important part of getting over the things that bug me is really confronting and really thinking about the things that hurt me, and i think talking with x was a really good first step

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bleh, all of today is just waiting for tomorrow
waiting
waiting
waiting

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i can NOT handle the struture of sitting at a computer desk right now, BLEH damnit laptop, get here faster!!!