dag, yo

[hoveringsombrero]

i couldn't sleep
so our test run at the new job is going to be totally sleep deprived
natch. ZOOM
livin' on the edge baby

anyhow i was looking through old entries looking for fake eyebrow picures
(see 'fake eyebrows' in memories)

ended up reading some old drama about rent and housing situations
wtf man?

why did i get so involved and stressed over something i really wasn't in control of?
probably cause i wasn't in control and felt gulity about not contributing more?

what am i saying more? more like not contributing atfuckingall
seriously, i was just the more than slightly cracked freeloading girlfriend

it's just when i stop and compare it side by side
to the more recent panic in jan over rent?
i want to go back and smack old me in the head.

but on the other hand
even though it's way more stress when you're the primary wage-earner
i'd rather have the incontrol stress then the beingsupported stress.

as much as i bitch at peanut, and i shouldn't
as much as i bitch about being the responsible kid who has to fix everything

i wouldn't really have it any other way
nobody takes care of eris but eris now
it's better that way.