and yet more ...

[hoveringsombrero]

i had pondered making a sans pinky filter.
would have been used to whine about finances
so that she wouldn't feel i was indirectly whining at her.

that's a slippery slope.

so i've just tried not to whine much at all.
i succeed by sheer force of stubborn sometimes,
but i'm miles away from her level,
and i know that's going to be frustrating at times for her.

this is leading up to a money whine isn't it?
oh maybe.

we'll make it to august, we have to.
i just don't fail anymore.
it's welfare office and temp agency this week.

i'd like to be furious that we've not gotten to either yet after all this time.
nobody to blame but me,
being mad at me gets me nowhere.
just move on and try to fix.
i've the car, i'm the kid who takes care of it all.
i was slacking
just fix and move on.

curtis is tapped out for the moment,
it's possible mother will buy us some groceries tomorrow
we've only got pasta (lots) and rice left.
which peanut can't live on, all starch
got testy strips so back to keeping better track of blood sugar
seems like went from too high,
to trying to keep it from dropping too far with the lack of what he can eat without shooting it way too high.

not very whiny i guess.
just gotta make it to august.
yup.