discontent
i had a big entry written when kal's computer crashed
so i lost it all
so fuck it
hi.
so i lost it all
so fuck it
hi.
2002-09-17
this is the eve of my .....
i'm writing this post in notepad and saving at every pause so i don't lose it if kal's computer crashes again.
yesterday was my last day at old job.
the last two days were the worst. probably because i just didn't want to be there anymore
i pick up my last paycheque on Wednesday.
with the upcoming prospect of the ability to hide half finished hair under a bandanna and be acceptable at work, and have the finished product be acceptable at work.... i'm pondering a new hair project.
i am pouring over ragdolly and some hair forums.
i left out the most important. the prospect of the ability to AFFORD the materials for a new hair project. =D
mmmfunhair. even tho this stuff on my head is a fairly flattering reddish brown, it makes me feel strange. i always feel like i'm in disguise or something when my hair is not a colour i want it to be.
ugh.
kal is not feeling well and seems a bit depressed.
GAH! i feel like i have something really really important to say but i know not what.
it's good that nobody's paying attention.
yeahyeah
nothing of importance here, move along now.
i dropped a class
for some reason i thought the horribly boring teacher that i dropped a class of last semester would be better this.
that's the class i went late to and left early.
i cannot sit through 3 hours of his babble that has nothing to do with the subject material.
nope.
my class that i'm keeping is next to a class that teacherilikedfromlastsemester is teaching this semester. i should corner him and find out when he'll be teaching the two classes that i refuse to take again from boringasallhellteacher.
ooohpretty
yesterday was my last day at old job.
the last two days were the worst. probably because i just didn't want to be there anymore
i pick up my last paycheque on Wednesday.
with the upcoming prospect of the ability to hide half finished hair under a bandanna and be acceptable at work, and have the finished product be acceptable at work.... i'm pondering a new hair project.
i am pouring over ragdolly and some hair forums.
i left out the most important. the prospect of the ability to AFFORD the materials for a new hair project. =D
mmmfunhair. even tho this stuff on my head is a fairly flattering reddish brown, it makes me feel strange. i always feel like i'm in disguise or something when my hair is not a colour i want it to be.
ugh.
kal is not feeling well and seems a bit depressed.
GAH! i feel like i have something really really important to say but i know not what.
it's good that nobody's paying attention.
yeahyeah
nothing of importance here, move along now.
i dropped a class
for some reason i thought the horribly boring teacher that i dropped a class of last semester would be better this.
that's the class i went late to and left early.
i cannot sit through 3 hours of his babble that has nothing to do with the subject material.
nope.
my class that i'm keeping is next to a class that teacherilikedfromlastsemester is teaching this semester. i should corner him and find out when he'll be teaching the two classes that i refuse to take again from boringasallhellteacher.
ooohpretty
tired i am i am.
i don't start new job till Saturday, then Sunday off, then back again Monday morning
then Monday - Friday 8hrs/day for 3 weeks (training)
then i'm probably going to be part time for a bit to make sure i get the times off for school.
hey i've only got Tuesday from 6.30 - 9.30 to keep free now. maybe i will be able to start off full time. that would be nice, full benefits sooner.
all this lovely time off before i start is going to make it a bit of a shock.
i think i'm discontented because it all sounds too good to be true.
the pay i want
work environment i want
hair/tat/piercing freedom
benefits i want
since when do i get what i want, eh?
i waiting for the other shoe to drop.
actually right now i would be very pleased to find out that i've just pissed someone off without knowing it again and that's the cause of my vague discontented feeling.
then i can get yelled at for the whole horrible friend issue and absent minded issue, etc. and then the obligatory made up list which people always feel they must throw in, perhaps to justify their anger, as if i don't have enough faults to get mad at in the first place.
and then the other shoe will have dropped and i can go on with my life.
till the next batch of shoes.
goddamn shoes.
then Monday - Friday 8hrs/day for 3 weeks (training)
then i'm probably going to be part time for a bit to make sure i get the times off for school.
hey i've only got Tuesday from 6.30 - 9.30 to keep free now. maybe i will be able to start off full time. that would be nice, full benefits sooner.
all this lovely time off before i start is going to make it a bit of a shock.
i think i'm discontented because it all sounds too good to be true.
the pay i want
work environment i want
hair/tat/piercing freedom
benefits i want
since when do i get what i want, eh?
i waiting for the other shoe to drop.
actually right now i would be very pleased to find out that i've just pissed someone off without knowing it again and that's the cause of my vague discontented feeling.
then i can get yelled at for the whole horrible friend issue and absent minded issue, etc. and then the obligatory made up list which people always feel they must throw in, perhaps to justify their anger, as if i don't have enough faults to get mad at in the first place.
and then the other shoe will have dropped and i can go on with my life.
till the next batch of shoes.
goddamn shoes.
a story which will gross out some people
hi it's overposty time, i'm not in the mood to go to class today. but i still will.
and i'll be early. blah blah blah.
i think i pinpointed one of the causes for my vague (i just typo 'd fague) discontent.
more money.
i fear it.
i must be very careful to not let more money just flat out = more bills.
i will NOT acquire a car payment just yet, i will put up with the truck.
i WILL get dsl and not cable, i WILL content myself with the free cable TV i will have when kal helps me set that up, and not order the viewing package from hell.
i only need one or two ips
i do not need 6.
i am a single person and do not need the same high speed access that kal+spanky+eris did require.
i will not start indiscriminately sending people gifts. i will set up another save-y device (like for biff's birthday trip) that will give me random gift money. and i will make a list of people that i want to thank with gifts, and i will first find gifts i've already bought then could not afford to send.
kal and i did not manage money well together. perhaps if we manage it fine separately then things will be more sane when we're back together.
oh yeah, i was going to tell a story
( the story )
and i'll be early. blah blah blah.
i think i pinpointed one of the causes for my vague (i just typo 'd fague) discontent.
more money.
i fear it.
i must be very careful to not let more money just flat out = more bills.
i will NOT acquire a car payment just yet, i will put up with the truck.
i WILL get dsl and not cable, i WILL content myself with the free cable TV i will have when kal helps me set that up, and not order the viewing package from hell.
i only need one or two ips
i do not need 6.
i am a single person and do not need the same high speed access that kal+spanky+eris did require.
i will not start indiscriminately sending people gifts. i will set up another save-y device (like for biff's birthday trip) that will give me random gift money. and i will make a list of people that i want to thank with gifts, and i will first find gifts i've already bought then could not afford to send.
kal and i did not manage money well together. perhaps if we manage it fine separately then things will be more sane when we're back together.
oh yeah, i was going to tell a story
( the story )
ok then
class doesn't start till 6.30 but traffic is going to start getting icky pretty soon
so i'm off. (in stockton currently)
i'll sit outside classroom and study. nice air conditioned hallway so all will be fine
ACK i'm wearing a dirty shirt!
hmm, maybe i'll find a shirt of kal's tosteal borrow before i leave.
oh yes
computer news
for some reason i don't get to take my computer home quite yet
kal is not convinced it's working properly enough yet.
however we did drive to sac to fry's yesterday (he needed a computer part) and i picked up a laptop hard drive adapter
so as soon as i GET my computer back i have a fast and easy way to suck all the data i need off of biff's laptop, and then off of my laptop so i can format it and make fixy.
MAKE FIXY!
someday i'll just get a new laptop, heh.
byebye
so i'm off. (in stockton currently)
i'll sit outside classroom and study. nice air conditioned hallway so all will be fine
ACK i'm wearing a dirty shirt!
hmm, maybe i'll find a shirt of kal's to
oh yes
computer news
for some reason i don't get to take my computer home quite yet
kal is not convinced it's working properly enough yet.
however we did drive to sac to fry's yesterday (he needed a computer part) and i picked up a laptop hard drive adapter
so as soon as i GET my computer back i have a fast and easy way to suck all the data i need off of biff's laptop, and then off of my laptop so i can format it and make fixy.
MAKE FIXY!
someday i'll just get a new laptop, heh.
byebye
i'm such a slacker
well i'm damn shitty at being late to things on porpoise purpose
but i'm really good at sneaking out early.
i left at break after roll sheet was signed
this teacher isn't very interesting either, but at least he has a well defined lesson plan and i know what to study.
*knocks on wood*
things are going to well for me, i'm afraid.
but i'm really good at sneaking out early.
i left at break after roll sheet was signed
this teacher isn't very interesting either, but at least he has a well defined lesson plan and i know what to study.
*knocks on wood*
things are going to well for me, i'm afraid.
conversation with mother
regarding a confirmation of something that came in the mail for me
her: "I should have just shredded it, it's stupid."
me : "You think everything I do is stupid."
her: "That is NOT true."
me : "Ok, 90% of everything."
her: "You're doing not-stupid things recently, it's just the past few years you've done things I think were pretty stupid."
me : "If by 'the last few years' you mean 'the last 25 years of my life' then yes."
her: (she sighs, and then says something along the lines of 'not really' or somesuch that wasn't an absolute, i disremember now)
her: "I should have just shredded it, it's stupid."
me : "You think everything I do is stupid."
her: "That is NOT true."
me : "Ok, 90% of everything."
her: "You're doing not-stupid things recently, it's just the past few years you've done things I think were pretty stupid."
me : "If by 'the last few years' you mean 'the last 25 years of my life' then yes."
her: (she sighs, and then says something along the lines of 'not really' or somesuch that wasn't an absolute, i disremember now)
a nifty picture
this is not the most flattering picture of biff and i<---- make with the clicky
what is nifty about it is that it shows that our eyes are EXACTLY the same colour
i was recently lecturing him to quit being like me in faults
we should be more alike in good things
i think i have nifty eyes, so he does also this is a good thing.
i'm sure we've got a lot of good qualities in common, but recently both of us have been worrying about stupid things for no good reason.
biff is the niftest brother ever!