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[hoveringsombrero]

happy fucking fourth of July
hoo-hah!

it was the best of times it was the worst of times

sometime later tonight i will go to the dreaded ER, get some drugs and get a doctor's note.

i'm almost glad i'm having serious girl problems right now, even if they may have been worsened by stress. gives me a valid reason to be feeling ick and gives me something tangible to get a doctors note for so i'll only get the one occurrence, hopefully i have enough PPT time so i won't lose any pay either.

i also haven't eaten today or yesterday
my lips are chapped i think my stomach has shrunk to nothing, i know i was drinking water yesterday not sure if i have today. i should at least drink water
maybe i should down some of that vitiman crap curtis gave me.

even if i'm still friending and filtering, it feels good not to be hiding.

what i hid mostly is how much everything since January has hurt me,
still hurts me i'm not over it, but i am moving on.
you know, eris of steel and all that, heartless bitch nothing touches me.
blah, i wish.